confronting my bisexual self

it was nothing but confusion coming to terms as to what i am; no matter where i turned, all the social norms an individual regards as fonts of understanding, were anything but helpful. forget the institutions of religion, they only condemn within the confines of ignorance; scholastic institutions seek to setup alternative dogmas, rift with research, forming other absolutes that say one is this, or one is that, but if not, must bonce like some kind of ping-pong ball from one post to another.

on the other side lies those that are poly amorous, multiple partners within a variances of relationships; but as a monogamous individual, where does that leave me?

hormones raging as does any adolescent, my song leader girl friend could arouse me with just that right smile, that perfect glance in my directions, the movements of her slender frame; my buddy on the swim team, tight hard muscles, strong-framed face, short-cropped hair, aroused just as much physical, mental, and emotional desires. not only their physical actions, but their personalities could move me with as much power.

sweet hell, what's a guy to do?

understanding myself

i am a definitive bisexual; i do not swing from gay to straight, like some sort of pendulum, nor am i one more than another, nor a variant of either.

often many think that their sexuality is ambivalent, but find themselves to be polymorphous/fluid sexuality, so will not find their sexual being here.

i do not attempt to put other sexualities to the test; those other sexualities are their own being, so anyone reading here needs to search out other sites or sources to understand what are those dominant characteristics.

in order to put to the reader, that what i have come to understand what is to be a bisexual, please link up with https://sites.google.com/site/biguynthecity/ for more information. herein this blog, i will put forth my day to day experiences as a bisexual, and what they enhance, detract, and broaden my understanding of myself.